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This realization, #sadhanaha , came to me this morning, with a new 90-day sadhana (practice), sitting in my new yoga room, in a new city, a new state- the energy of newness is with me!
For years, my practice to self-understanding has been to dig deep, to get the root of thoughts, beliefs, behaviors, with the idea that when (and only when) I can understand WHY something is happening, at its root, can it be released (if it seems to no longer be in alignment with how I want to experience life). This approach shaped my initial career path (psychology), my yoga practice, journaling practice, and really, my interpretation of the world. I truly held to, and identified with the belief that the root must be plucked to release something, and that that process was inherently lengthy and arduous. What an assumption!
This morning, with the lightness of new, this belief was challenged and changed for me. As I sat on my mat, breathing, being with the feelings of uncertainty, unfamiliarity, and the fear that can come with the unknown, this is what came:
1. The awareness that I was in a fear mentality
2. That I could choose differently, not through some lengthy process, but RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW, IN THIS VERY MOMENT.
I said to myself, "This fear is not mine; I release it now." And it was released! Seriously! I took a deep, huge, spacious breath. I felt massive space within and without. I felt a warmth, a settling. It felt amazingly liberating. And through that direct experience (principle #1 on the path of yoga) my truth was changed. It was clear that, at least not always, and maybe never, is it required to take the long winding road to understanding WHY this fear is here, WHERE it came from, WHAT it represents, or HOW to overcome it. In fact, taking that approach can keep us stuck in it-overly identified with it as our only option. Sometimes, coming into the awareness that we are in a particular state of being, and that this state of being is not in alignment with the way we want to live our lives, WITHOUT judgement or clinging, is enough to release it and move on. Though our minds would convince us otherwise, sometimes it is as easy as saying, "I choose differently", affirming that we indeed create our reality in each and every moment with each and every thought we allow to take up space.
Without thinking about it too much, give it a try. Notice, observe, affirm, release, repeat.
With love and the lightness of release,
P.S. As always, if you feel inspired, please share a comment below, and share the love with your community; we grow together <3.