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This contemplation came to me during (a rather long) flight home. I was reflecting on having travelled home for my grandpa’s funeral services after a long weekend of training and how I’d felt pulled toward different focuses: my mind was saying “you need to stay connected” to being present with business and social media in the meditation and awareness groups I’ve started; my heart was saying “connect here” to what was present, to what was right in front of me, to be fully present with family, with friends, with what I was feeling. The former felt like an urging, the other felt like Truth. So I chose to be fully present at home, but not without the fear struggle of the stories my mind concocted: “people are going to stop following you or wanting to hear what you have to say”; “other people you respect post daily on social media”; “how are people ever going to know what you’re about if you don’t saying anything?”.
What I rationalized was that I was only going to post something if it really felt authentic and aligned to do so. Then I thought, “Wait a minute! Isn’t that how I’d like to show up all the time? Why would I post something just to post something?” I’ll tell you why: the F-bomb, FEAR. Fear of not being seen and heard, fear of being “wrong” for choosing my approach over others I’ve deemed more ‘successful’; fear of giving more weight to the Inner than the Outer world.
What I also noticed is that it bumped up against a couple of characteristics that seem to be important to me: being consistent and being authentic. In my experience, we are told that being “authentic” is noble and valiant, but in action in the world, it may not always be received as noble or valiant. How often do we “show up” because we said we would, not because we truly want to be there? What do we prefer, someone who always shows up no matter what, or someone who may not always make him or herself available, but when he/she does, it’s with 100% full presence? Take some time to ponder!
As I considered this for myself, it seemed that my identity in the world felt consistency was importance because it felt the safest. “People (I) like consistency, stability, predictability, routine”. Additionally, many mentors have shared that a consistent social media presence is an important part of a successful business. What I realized this week, in choosing to really disconnect from it, and choosing to be fully present with supporting family and devoting energy to processing the cycle of life and death, is that having a ‘consistent’ posting practice (in the traditional sense) on social media for me is not authentic or aligned right now (that doesn’t mean that it isn’t for others). The consistency that does feel aligned is posting if/when a full-heart “yes” inspiration hits me, and it feels of benefit to share with others.
I also considered how others have described me when I am most connected to my true nature: “quiet but powerful presence”; “quiet brilliance”; “silent strength”; “a calming presence to be around”. It seems that what people receive from my Truth comes not so much from the words I say/don’t say, but how they feel when they are in my presence. While that energy may be felt more readily in-person, I feel like it can be transmitted virtually, through acting in alliance with my Truth.
To sum up, I don’t feel that acting from authenticity is the same as only doing what you want when you feel like it. It’s acknowledging that in any moment, there are a wide variety of places, people, thoughts, actions that your energy, attention, and presence could be focused on, and whatever you choose, you are aware of and take 100% responsibility for that choice. Maybe you choose to focus your energy and resources on the action that is most aligned to your Truth, and if not, you are willing to admit that to yourself (and perhaps others) as well. I also feel that there is a place for consistency in authenticity; it seems to tap into courage, honesty, and perhaps asking others for support as well. Perhaps the underlying message here is how much we are willing to listen to and know our Inner Truth, and how often/how much we are willing to expose that to the Outer World. To me it feels bold, light, and refreshing. I am practicing it myself, and welcome each of you to express from your Truth, whatever form that takes. May we remember the basic goodness within all, and serve as mirrors and space-holders to practice sharing our Truth more fully.
With Support, Gratitude, and Reverence for the expression of your Inner Truth,